..............help me ........................?

i always feared of not getting excepted by a group...but now i dont like it. i try to act like, lie sometimes....i dont like ppl to feel bad just the way i do wen some1 ignores me! it saddens me!like me dad he always makes me feel down and i did almost eveything to make him happy..i think i dont live a life for myself..its bad..makes me feel horrible...i dont want to like that! pls help me....i want to trust u